Monday, June 17, 2013

Running Realization

     I had a profound epiphany this evening...I have legs!

     Ok, ok, so that was merely the first thought of a great realization.  Here is how it all went down.

     Fun fact: Wolverhampton has the longitude and latitude coordinates of 52.5900° N, 2.1500° W.  As such, today, June 17th, the sun rose at 4:44 a.m. and set at 9:37 p.m.; while sunshine is one of the top ten loves of my life, I do not appreciate it making an appearance before five o'clock in the morning.  On the bright side (haha, get it?), this late departure of the sun has provided me with a wonderful setting for night runs.  
     This year, running has been a wonderful outlet for me; however, that has not always been the case.  My entire childhood was predicated around the fact that if I was doing a lot of running it was probably because I did something wrong.  The words, "On the line" will be forever strike into my very core.  Gone are the days of running from end line to end line and surprisingly enough I have taken to the streets.  Last summer, somewhat begrudgingly and at the insistence of one, Lindley Bell, I took up running in road races.  There started my love-hate relationship with running; but, if I am going to be honest...it is mostly hate.  
     There have been times, on more than one occasion, when I have used a very feeble excuse as to why I should not go on a run: it is too cold, it is raining (those two were pretty common), I'm tired from work, etc.  After a lifetime of being given workouts, schedules, and being told where to run and for how long, it has been a relief to dictate my workouts.  At this point you are probably wondering where this monumental epiphany comes into play. 
     I have recently decided that I do not have any valid excuses why I should not be running on a daily basis.  The days have gotten longer and the weather has gotten "nicer."  So this evening I set off literally into the sunset and began my run.  It started off all well and good (because it was all downhill) until I was on my way back and had to climb the long incline I had so joyously scampered down at the beginning.  So I put my head down and with the mental encouragement from Sarah Jurewicz, "Drive your knees up, Up, UP!!!" I eventually made it to the top of the hill and thought, "Huh, well that was not so bad."  
    With a quarter of a mile left in my run, that is when it hit me, "How dare you curse that hill!  You have two strong legs (thanks to WWB), how dare you not take on the challenge of that hill every day!" At this point I was feeling slightly ashamed of myself, which is an incredibly odd feeling at the end of a workout; yet, there I was sitting in my disgust on my front porch.  I was not so much mad at myself that  the run was difficult, or that I am slightly out of shape, but that there are so many people who would give anything to run.  All over the world there are those who because of injury, debilitation, persecution, poverty cannot do something as simple as putting one foot in front of the other and running.  
    Running is an amazing thing: it is therapeutic, good for the body, and good for the soul.  I am grateful that God has blessed me with the ability to run; I am not the fastest and on occasion look like Phoebe running through Central Park.  I only hope that this feeling of gratitude will continue to permeate into other areas of my life.  I pray that when I am unknowingly unappreciative I will be reminded of just how lucky I am.  
    It's actually a pretty simple concept: Run for you. Run for God. Run for those who can't.  
   As always...and as he continues to prove...Life is Good, and so is God!

Sunday, June 9, 2013

The Publication Drought is OVER!!!!!!

So, it has been about three months...and yes, I realize that it is completely my fault.
I would however like to point out that these last three months have been incredibly busy and have thus given me a slight excuse for my lack of publications.
Now, on this lovely Sunday afternoon I have found a few spare hours and it seems only appropriate I attempt to catch everyone up on the last three months.  Here we go...

Roughly six weeks ago the serving YAGMs were sent an email from the Program Director of YAGM, Heidi. I like to think that if we were all spies, which of course we are not (per the contract that we signed), she would be one of our handlers.  Anyway, the email was updating us on the fact that the previous week YAGM had officially offered placements to 64 new young people to serve all over the world in the name of God.  It is the largest group of volunteers that YAGM has ever had; while a new group means that our time is quickly drawing to a close, I am excited for all those who are about to embark on this life changing experience.  Heidi, and all of our "handlers" are sending us a whole slew of information and then leaving us with something uplifting.  I would also like to point out that they always seem to include just what we need to hear... it is like they know us or something.


O Lord God,
I have no idea where I am going,
I do not see the road ahead of me,
I cannot know for certain where it will end.

Nor do I really know myself,
And that fact that I think
I am following Your will
Does not mean that I am actually doing so.

But I believe
That the desire to please You
Does in fact please You.
And I hope I have that desire
In all that I am doing.

I hope that I will never do anything
Apart from that desire to please You.
And I know that if I do this
You will lead me by the right road,
Though I may know nothing about it.

Therefore I will trust You always
Though I may seem to be lost
And in the shadow of death.
I will not fear,
For You are ever with me,
And You will never leave me
To make my journey alone.

(Thomas Merton, Pax Christi, Benet Press, Erie, PA.)

My year of service is rapidly coming to a close.  I have moments of anticipation to be back in Springfield, sadness to leave my new home in Penn Fields, and an overwhelming nervousness concerning the fact that I do not have concrete plans for my return.  And then I receive emails like this with words that remind me to have a little patience and a strong faith that my future has been decided...it just has not been relayed to me yet.